goodbye 2010

dear heart.
You’re weird.
First you gave love a chance, loving the wrong person for so long.
You gave it all you had and let yourself open without thinking that you would ever get hurt.
you loved with all you had even though you knew that the other heart did not love you as much. You kept loving and loving, hoping that you & the other heart will meet half way. Then the time actually came, the time where you got hurt. you were completely broken & shattered. So broken that everybody noticed it. You didn’t want to give love a chance again; never again. Why would you give love another chance when you have gone through so much bullshit and lies? He ripped you out dear heart, and stepped all over you, crushing you to pieces and then just left you there without even cleaning you up! Dear heart; I’m very sorry. So so so so so sorry that I put you through so much hurt & pain. That is why I will kep you locked up. I will never put you through more pain.

i went trough hell and back.
i didn't know my life was going to change. but it does. that's life.
i got shot by cupid and fell for you. hard.
Maybe it didn't end the way it was supposed to. But some day I am going to look back on this love and realize that it was preparing me for something better. and i will find my happyness one day. but happyness is a hard fucking road. but i will get there. i promise.

i don't deserve better. i deserve YOU

it's 2 late 2 say you're sorry